Michael Mclean had a faith crisis?
I grew up on his songs, and the composer and author of the songs that helped shape my teenage faith had questions?
Watch the videos below. They will show you that the Lord loves each of us–individually and personally. And EACH of us must face a similar crucible of doubt to really break through and become who we should be.
βDad, I canβt do it anymore. Iβm gay.β Michael Mcleanβs son had come out to him. βDad, Iβve tried to do everything you said. I went on my mission. I was an Eagle Scout. And I donβt know how to get through it.β Michael felt his sonβs pain and wanted to support him. So, he turned to God in prayer.
Michael had received answers before. He knew they would come, but he felt nothing. It was the first time in his life the heavens felt shut. His prayers couldnβt get past the ceiling. Michael begged God to talk to him.
It was challenging the first weeks and months, but as two years passed, Michael questioned, βWhat if I got it wrong? Is there really a God who hears my prayers?β He asked himself, βCan I keep the promises Iβve made when my heart feels nothing?β Michael got on his knees and prayed, as he had countless times before.
While Michael prayed, he said, βI donβt know if Youβre hearing this, but Iβm going to quit whining and moaning. Iβm going to trust You. Iβm going to trust that, at some point, Youβll communicate with me, and I wonβt feel so lost.β Michael didnβt give up hope, but he stopped trying to make himself feel something.
Michael writes songs for a living. After nine years in his faith crisis, he had an extraordinary experience. One day he went into his study. It was as if songs were being downloaded to his mind. He wrote for 10 days and completed 12 songs. Michaelβs answers came in those songs. He felt that God had answered him in a way only he could understand. They came directly from Godβs heart to his. Michael was overwhelmed by His grace.
Have you ever had a crisis of faith?
What do you do when you feel like God isnβt speaking to you?